I've Graduated!

I am suppose to do a writing before I could start writing this new page.

And it came so fast that I ought to hold on with all sort complexities for all true thinking thoughts that came streaming from one after another... continuously....

Wanna to know what's the time of the day thus, I switched on my iphone the moment I reached my usual bus-stop. 

Didn't get myself to check the clock, but was rather caught up by What's app , three messages unread. 

Okay! Just thumb it and check out who's the messager? 

For the matter of fact, couldn't look into details for the other two messages of some usual stuffs but was caught trembling for a message from classmate, subject: Legal Aspect of Business result is out now in student portal. 

Oh my! 

I could feel the beating, my heart beat went pounding hard. 

"Check it now or later?" as I inhale and exhale for calming myself. 

Sitting on the bench with my hand clinking my haversack aside, I feel warm and a little sweaty that my whole body system somehow work backwards and somewhat upside down that internal organ is functioning otherwise. Feeling of throwing out anytime. 

(Body system clashed for one particular moment) 

"Calm down! Is okay, whether or not you still have to face it" I muttered. 

Goggle for student portal login and couldn't find the exact site. 

(Arrrghh ....!!!! *anxiety) 

Reload and refresh I got into my student portal main page. 

"This is it!" I concluded. 

Zoom in to see the tab, "EXAM RESULT"> current semester and 

My eyes caught into the grading system instead on my subject grading and misread by somewhat otherwise preparation. 

Only till I get myself a closer look, I got a credit.

Yes! I've passed my legal Law subject!  

I am now graduating for the three years and six months of school for Diploma In Business Practice from Temasek Polytechnic! 

(Bus came) 

Getting onto the bus, mind somewhat went blank. 

The only person in mind that I've got to share this moment with is my Law lecturer for knowing the going through and Yesh! I graduate today! 

Getting at the back end seat in the bus,thick tears framing in my eyes for being grateful ! And Thank God! You hear me for my hardwork and effort! 

Thank you! 

(Trying hard to hold, to hold , please hold on to those rolling tears.... ) 

Is really never easy that I came so far for reaching this graduation. 

(Hush... Hush... Trembling badly in within, trying hard for consoling myself) 

Uncontrollable tears flow continuously.... 

Flashes of my tough days in school, 

Dark nights sitting alone behind doors from a long walk-way stairs .... 

Standing in a dark corridor by the side outside a classroom doors .... 

They say , he says , she says .... 

Those horrifying things they did ..... 

Is now over .... 

And I recalled, 

Charles papa knew my difficulties in my year 2 for so many thing that came crashing on me and couldn't bare to see me got hurt anymore ... 

He wanna to save me for asking me to letting it go to move on for some other beautiful things .... 

My only reply at that point of time to him, 

"I am determine for what has happened and I would like to find an answer for all, of what I've gone through" 

He nodded and motivate me strongly in return, 

"If that is what you want! Let's go get it and let's work on it together!" He said with certainties and confide upon it. 

Days went by and months or so....

Now! Today, my report card is out, 

"I've got it! My diploma!" 

I broke the news the moment I reached Farrer Park. 

Indeed! 

(Feeling blessed!) 

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(For the whole day, I kept myself emotionally controlled away from papa Yong) 

My heartfelt thanks! For giving me so much care and love!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you so much Charles papa! 

L.O.V.E

Today is rather another lovely day... (Sunday)

Everyday... I've got myself a little work to do and bring my personal learnings POV (point of view) to a next level for practicing my belief in my daily life, for the fact of reality! if things are what some many says are insouciant shrug. 

I sincerely needs an answer or rather should there Pinterest for just an appealing affection or so. 

Hence, I get myself started for some hands-on stuffs at a workshop. 

I wasn't quite sure for anything, if is a green light or am I out of my mind for some sort planning stuffs but all i want and ask for is a simple happiness out from my ability. 

(Cos, I seriously dislike for having a missing piece I lost forever! )

(Mama Yong, you are dearly missed! I heard you calling me...)

My little work for me to do everyday is to get myself "good food" and perhaps share it with people who truly deserve it. 

Upon my working time, is somewhat a "tunching" hours.

(Tunching = tea time cum late lunch, founder of the word by Kevin Mathews lecturer) 

(Laughing) 

"What is today sharing?"  I somewhat diaphragm when I was brushing my teeth, when I was taking my shower, when I was waiting for my bus, when I was in the bus, when I was dressing up, when I was walking in the street .... 

  

(Hmmm....) 

I recalled places for good food, I recalled the said for what's nice what's like and dislike and today I exchange my little learning for an ultimate sharing! 

Indeed is a multi learning with lots and tons of sharing that come along. 

I am in L.O.V.E! 

Yes! The answer is L.O.V.E

I don't do my learnings and sharing for the sake of doing .... 

There's a purpose(s) ... We learn from one another. Is only have you found the right people to sincerely share understand you and knowing what's best for you?! 

"If you care more of an enough, you are embracing an affectionate of love, be it friendship or family members to whom the person is.... You are the one, the one only special that will be dearly taken care of." 

(My continuing writing of where I stopped off earlier ....)

You have to gonna trust me! 

Love has the greatest force to turn you and your life changing for giving you lots more of good-life journey and chapters. 

I have witness for some many good Love-life people around me. 

You will feel ultimate wonderful for their sharings. 

Laughter, giggling, teasing for good and perhaps that is priceless beautiful smile from one another. 

There are all precious! 

Teach A Life, For Life

A few days back .... My lecturer and I had arranged to meet up to support a book & music launch. 

Before we could get going into the topic of the launch, I somehow got myself to login to Eileen's website for more detail or rather seek preview of what's? the up coming event content. 

Frankly speaking, by just listening from my phone gadget is just a machine playing some songs .... No engagement, no communication, no images or pictures that will come trigger your emotions or rather any running through thoughts or vision for that lovely music that she wanna to share and portray. 

Is only when you are there to see or meet her....

And that is also a reason why, live and interactive for her songs and book have make a right approach for getting absolutely a right venue for, Teach a Life, for Life! 

Is terrific awesome!  

I get to see her before her marriage and after her marriage somewhat has grown her tremendously and has transformed her for so much in her confident than the first time round I see her in artistry. 

Trust me.... Is the Power of Love ~ 

Is only when you believe , is already yours and you will receive it ! 

Very silly me for wanted to share upon that one particular music I fond about it..... And stutter for "what's that song ... What's that song.... " in my head. 

(Hmmm...) 

"Hello! " I greeted 

"Am already here in ion, where are you? 

"A station away!" Kevin replied 

"Alright, I will be at the control station exist towards ion ~" , as I hang up, I continue my writing ....

(Laughing at myself for what's that spelling word for that another event... Erm.... Eh...) 

(Totally forgotten I am in the middle of buzzing  crowd,  in town ~ too engross writing! ) 

"Di don do .... !" 

(Phone rang) 

Looking at my phone screen, Kevin is online and he must have reached. 

Answering the phone as I look around for his arrival. 

"There he is ... " I muttered. 

(Usual greetings when we both met) 

He still carries that lovely smile.... But a little different of his look from his long grown hair and a Capri cap. 

(Little chatting)

And Of all, we had already decided to "Tunch" before heading to the music launch. 

Quick decision. 

Awfully chocolate? , Swensen? ... 

"Swensen! " decided by Kevin. 

Not knowing where exactly the Swensen is and we quick check from a directory board right ahead us. 

"Alright! B2" he spotted in seconds from the reading board. 

" So which way do we head on, which then we are now at B1 ...." I continued. 

"Escalator from where we are positioning now towards our right is heading straight to L1 so .... I guessed we are suppose to keep to the left sided escalator for going to B2. "  we both keep an alert to our surrounding for going the right way. 

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Just can't wait to be seated, when we both reached. 

Got settle and menues were readily for orders

(Tuching~ ) 

And the Most enjoyable time to ease our craving will be giving ourselves a good sweet treats!

 

(For sure, reward ourselves for our every hardwork)

As we continue... 

It was almost time to get ready for Eileen music launch, which time now, quarter till six. 

(Anxious, excited!) 

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Stepping in Balaclava, she has already started , busying with her work at the reception counter for arranging her books , RSVP list or so..... 

To kick start the event... I multiple snap-shots for a warm up. 

(Her always brightly and jaunty smile keep you truly bonded) 

"Where's my book?!" I questing for getting my copy. 

"Teach A Life, For Life" - Eileen Chai

(Giggles and laughters~) 

Couldn't held long at the reception where queue seem forming up behind. 

Kevin Mathews and I get going for having ourselves seated and Eileen's hubby 

came by for getting us a glass of beer and a little catching up. 

(Did I just taste a sweet smoothing beer?! Eh.... Seriously the beer taste sweet! ~ no joke) 

~ Music event is about to start anytime....

And I just couldn't wait to watch her on live with her violin 

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During the event introduction, 

I note down; 

True is true for the fact that she been/ gone through;

 

Helpful to learn from one another;

Inspiring as not many people that come to achieve in life , being humble;

Kind person ,young person learn to forgive, when the person around was suppose to be around wasn't there for her; 

-Eileen Chai Music Event

(Very impressive~) 

An autograph from her for her today and many ahead successes! 

Congratulation! My dear.... 

My heartfelt wishing for you and your Mr hubby, Ben ..... and thank you for having me there #enjoy the ride ~ And I truly know it means a lot for you! #reborn to #spread your wings. 

 

Interesting

"Walking briskly towards Funan centre for getting my home a phone set 

and yep... How clever me that at times I will then have a chance to open up my mouth to ask for any assistance or maybe an information counter to direct my earphone exchange or so later" I crossed the road and headed straight to the mall. 

Stepping in into the mall, there was an animation atrium or so call the cos-play event going on. With all the set up I couldn't see where I can go to an information counter and I stopped over at a mini booth to seek for quires. 

Guess, the guy was kind of busy and I decided to ya, look see around. 

Lady Luck kind of being with me and as I walked further down the event hall, I saw these two men wearing klipsch T-shirt coming up from an escalator that I suppose they perhaps can help me with my quires for getting my earphone for an exchange for later.

Well... They both look stunned indeed as I approached them and I feel them too ... From their eyeing-look upon on me head to toe.... 

Well, I guess it an interesting reaction to a totally new stranger face. 

"Make a guess, they must have just gotten their lunch." as I continued my quires,they initiate to come with them to show me the direction as they are returning to their work too. 

Oh man! 

The walking behind with these two strangers were rather a something huh....

Yep, another break-through for being brave enough to trust! 

Standing so still, across the pedestrian waiting for the red man to turn green, looking at them from the side, chatting away casually. 

Apparently learnings are incredible! 

(Very importantly, put away your pride!)

Thou, time to times, I feel totally out of place and ya "weird" to a complete max!

I guessed is rather normal! 

Is part and puzzlers of life. 

They both remind me of my law lecturer for teaching their students with open arms and Yesh, children any questions! 

(~Children were all human-scared creature to ask questions, probably they would have freak-out by then) 

(Laughing) 

Thank you so much for the leading! 

Appreciate! 

Summer Time

Yesterday got home near to midnight.... Fumbling my haver-sack side pocket for my keys and I've reached home feeling wonderful with my bag of new tailor-made pants and design suit shorts. 

I walked in straight to the kitchen to put them in the laundry basket. 

Couldn't see the piling up hill-like of those wore clothes pending for laundry and for the next few days will be laundrying my whites clothing... Thus, might as well, laundry it now.... Though is a little late now and it will take awhile for having the laundry to be done. 

Couldn't think or hesitate further or more, I dump in all colors clothing and hit the start button. 

What's next? 

Feeling warm this night, quick cold dessert of the night should chill off the humidity and with my TV , Nat Geo People showing a place for a maybe Summer Time gateway..... 

"The cold dessert taste more for a purpose as of now, so to speck" I sat in front of my Lappy and I pull over my Lappy screen towards a little and chin on it. 

"I feel that soft sandy beach across my eyes and shunning away from that glaring sun I squicked like a little mouse to hide and seek under the shady for getting myself a little more cozy corner." What an OMG likey likey dos ... As I continue I laid back with my ice-cream half-melted lippy onto my lips. 

My Event-tually

My few years back, I had a beautiful picture in my eyes knowing deeply what I want and foreseeing for sure. 

Like everyone else, norm practice..... WORK. SAVE . LIFE 

Mutually I planned, way ahead of any circumstances I keep myself at a safe side from all astray and got myself  into every hope for getting a decent job to pay my daily essential needs, save up for my up coming wedding and get a life, a new chapter of life for me, you and family.

Well, for not knowing whatsoever reason(s), my interview(s) and resume(s) were all mishap abused. 

I couldn't understand for not having to bring in any income, I truly disciplined myself extremely and keep myself moderately surviving in those tough days. 

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I am totally on my own in New Year of 2013, which then, I motivated myself to start afresh and parents were aside to keep me accompany silently without asking much and cautiously handling my days with so much care and love. 

Which then, my directions were still going strong and firm! for whatsoever...

My days still carry on, and the pictures were still beautiful to be able to see my Plans, for seeing my parents, Ya! A Sanctuary Honeymoon for them. 

Couldn't give them enough for an iPad to capture for so many more beautiful pictures and at times, like Charles Papa always quote, "No Time To Get Old, And Keep Learning!" 

Yes! Now, Yesterday, An iPad Air has arrived and was way way way delayed.., which Mama Yong has passed away on April 7th 2014. 

(Holding back my tears....)

And, 

I hold back my thoughts.... 

For the real moment, I just want to see his wondering face for being an old folk, not having himself to go for any academic education, he is still a Learner, a Positive Learner towards his life. 

That is Why..... 

I witness his Attitude of life! 

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My way back home on bus, I teared for the missing piece forever of LOVE for Mama Yong. If she would be around, she will be a vain-pot for a or a many fun snap-shot(s) with that new iPad Air and

Which Event-tually...... 

Many more, I will embrace it The Precious! Ever Moments! 

   

Now I know....

Lately did I know....

Many years ago, I was once told, 

" There is no such thing of any uncertainty, is only you have to bloody work on it and at times be contented of what you have...."

And again, I somehow found an answer. 

Yesh! From my last night into working my excel, I kind of understand ..... 

Do not over pamper, is only when you know an overall give and take, contended. 

Which then, again, it follows to unfold another trainer Cherie Ong quote

" Almighty dollar is not everything !"

Oh my god! 

Then it says ....