What was it? For so many ultimate times, my mind
couldn't think any further.
I know, there is something truncating upon me.
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That particular evening....
"Hey! Hello... What do you want?"
promptly asked seeing a customer walking in into our store.
(Phone rang)
(Eh, Catherine in-calling? This hour?)
"Hello!" I greeted politely
"Mummy....... Mummy! passed away!" she
sobbed horribly online
(Breaking News)
"Huh?! What did you just say?"I could not
understand
Again, she replied sobbing away
The very next moment, I looked at my Mass
Communication Manager,
"I will have to go now, my mommy
mommy..." I strutted
"Go, Go, Go! ...." She
replied
Forwarding my pace than usual for reaching my bag
and I saw a SMS stated " Mama Yong just passed away"
Heart sunken from moment to moment
Dashing out from the store, teardrops filled my
eyes had caught my vision blur.
Standing at the pavement for reaching a cab somehow
had dread me tremendously, couldn't stay put at one spot, but to keep walking
ahead.
At last, I got myself into a cab, "to
Dover Hospice", I trembled as tears rolled down onto my cheeks.
Looking into the contacts list, I called
Catherine,
"Where are you now?" I reassured.
"I have just reached Hospice entrance"
she replied with blocking nose tone.
(Phone-call ended)
And started to grief uncontrollably.
"How could that happen?" I weep
(Heading towards PIE, slow driving, traffic jam)
Fumbling for tissues as I calmed myself
Feelings got worst, when the taxi driver drove you to a totally wrong direction from where you wanna to go.
"My Mommy has passed away!" I exclaimed taxi uncle round-about from where I desperately need to be present at once.
(He may not understand what was like for receiving such breaking news upon my mommy's death, the one day, he will!)
Moment I reached Hospice, walking onto that
routine visiting corridor walk-way, I saw my relatives seating outside at the
doorstep.
As I pushed opened the door, walking towards the
bed, mommy has already gone deeply asleep
"Mommy!" I shouted with outbreak tears
Couldn't think properly, as I step-back,
step-forward moment to moments.
"Mommy! Please wake up!" I demanded with
my hand shaking her sleeve onto her motionless body.
All of a sudden, I loose all my strength
holistically and didn't know what do I do next. I bend my knees weeping
painfully onto the ground, vision got shallow and parts of my legs and upper
body went numb.
I couldn’t hear anyone except stumbling sobbing.
“You ever
plead for ultimate times to want me to learn up sketching~
"Okay! ~ (Sobbing)
"Okay, I will get myself to start to learn and
sketch~ I trembled and grief with my on hand already wetted tissue.
(So many beautiful things are coming to embrace you
and I have so much to share, I cried)
"Mommy, do you know, I have also saved up
"Strawberry farm", holiday fund solely for you and papa already"
as I continued
(I recalled that particular evening when I visited
TTS, you were crying so sadly upon something, What was it? )
"So many painful things casted upon me and I
managed it through how could you! how could you left without my permit! ~
haven't you forgotten of what you had taught me?
(Sobbing)
“We will have to leave mommy with the nurses for
getting her ready dressed up at the casket” could not recall what’s going on
but was totally nailed hard onto the ground unconsciously.
(Mind went blank, trembling, sobbing as I moved to
the doorstep)
Nurses came
“No, don’t close that door!” I sobbed bending knee
with shivered body outside the corridor.
(Relatives beside consoled dearly)
Didn’t know where they will assemble mommy’s body,
I calmed myself time to time
(There are so
many things I wanna to tell her…)
Sobbed … sobbed … sobbed….
"You can now go to the resting room for any last word to your mommy, before sending her off", uncle concerned.
A kiss, embedded love just couldn't bare to see her off for going forever!
